Today I’m feeling down; I can’t put my finger on why. I’ve been pushing myself so hard recently to make sure I fill up every day with ‘stuff’. I got a dog. I got a moped. I became vegetarian. I signed up for a life coaching course. I’m teaching online with 2 jobs. I’m doing yoga every day. I’m cooking and eating LOADS. This is something I regularly notice that I do, over fill my time (perhaps overcompensating).
I haven’t really considered the fact that I’m living in Vietnam, alone. I miss my friends and family even though I speak to them most days. I’m not homesick, but I haven’t given myself the time or space to process anything. It’s important for me to talk when I feel like this. We’ve been on lockdown here since 1st April, due to end 15th April (this could change).
My money situation isn’t ideal and I have rent to pay. I’m so lucky that I have people I can reach out to who will support me until things are more stable, because at this point I don’t think I could come home even if I wanted to. My mum and my sister are absolute angels 👼 (also shout out to Luke & Vicky).
Yesterday I felt really grateful for the life I’m living currently. Yesterday was a good day, it wasn’t any different to today on the surface but I felt good. Maybe I’m burning out a little? Whatever the reason is for this ‘meh’ feeling, I’ve ordered pizza and I’m having an early night. I’ll start over tomorrow, a new day with new perspective.
Stay safe everyone 💕
